Maybe My Niche is Just Being a Mother?
This will be an extremely cliche’ boring mom post. Filled with baking pictures and kids playing a Pinterest inspired activity. Just a disclaimer to anybody looking for something juicy, this is not the post.
Hopefully this feeling of inadequacy is just part of the transformation process as I slowly and awkwardly morph into a productive and more importantly sane stay at home mom . I’m trying to find some sort of groove or my “niche” to slide into and it’s not quite as picturesque as I hoped it would be.
Breastfeeding forces me to be pretty stationary and that’s not something a 2 year old nods their head at in understanding. So right now since one is so little and the other is …also little (but pretty big considering his competition I suppose), making one happy generally makes the other one unhappy.
You know that saying, “You can’t please everybody.” ?
I feel like I’m pushing that to it’s limits a lot lately.
So it’s a lot of give and take and choosing my battles. In conjunction with a stern mom voice and a middle name.
It’s also a lot of Pinterest and books.
I get a lot of enjoyment out of baking. I will admit entirely (not proudly) to being a control freak. Baking gives that quirk (sure, that’s what we’ll call it) an opportunity to channel it into something positive and productive. If the end product is a total dumpster fire of a dish, then the only person to blame is me.
When you have an amazing dish come out is the oven, it’s rewarding. I did it right! Yes!
But on the flip side, it’s very humbling to be put in your place by a poorly executed, tiny macaron shell.
Lots of trial and error and learning something doesn’t work by watching it fail slowly in front of you for 40 minutes at 350°.
Pretty much my entire life.